A Promise..

There are so many things that i want to say
Yet so many reasons why i turn away
There are so many things that i want to do
But i have to choose to be far from you.

You have given me a smile each time i was low
But its scary, i cannot let the love grow
You have made me happy, as happy as i could be
But this is not fair, this cannot be happening to me

I wish i could reach out and touch you
But your reasons to look here are very few
I am sorry that i leave, sorry if i give you pain
But i have to go, go out in the rain

If you ever can love me,i pray please do
I will always wish for that, i will always love you
I promise i will wait, i promise to keep the faith
I promise forever, i promise today.


-Renee
28-01-2008

Growing up

The times when small things
Could bring us joy
Our faces lit up with
But just one small toy
When our mothers made
Sure that we ate all right
And we always had daddy
Holding our hands very tight.

What happened to the innocence
That once was within?
What happened to the honesty,
The ethics and the discipline?
When did the concept of
Love and friendship change?
When did life become
Just about our selfish selves?

Why is it not possible to
Run back to the purity of childhood?
Why are we alone and
Why is that our choice?
Why do we expect the worst
And not believe the good?
Why do we deceive the world
And then even lie to ourselves?

Is this is what growing up is about?
Is this what it all was meant to be?
Was childhood just a happy dream?
Was faith in god just an excuse?
So where do we go from here?
So do we just keep walking alone?
Will there ever be answers to questions?
Will there ever be a happy me?

Goodbye Sweet Love

Goodbye sweet love
I wish you all the best
You have taught me so much, my love
And today, I stand to take the test
It took a few things to go
To get a few things new
Today it does not pain to let go
Regrets and doubts are very few.

Goodbye sweet memories
The past does not haunt me now
I learnt how not to believe your stories
I learnt how to live for myself now
You got me to give up some old wishes
You got me to make some new ones
Today I do not have any grievances
Today I smile with my loved ones.

Goodbye sweet thoughts
I think differently now
Goodbye sweet innocence
I know life much better now
I do not love you anymore sweet love
Nor will I hate you ever
So Goodbye my sweet loveI pray you be happy forever.

Life To Me

I was walking on the beach one night
Walking alone with no one in sight
My mind was filled with a lot of thoughts
Thoughts abstract that I could not fight.

I looked up at the moonlit sky
It seemed to assure that it will protect me
I walked towards the singing waves
Who seemed to sing the songs of life to me.

The wet golden sands comforted my feet
The cool wind played with my long black hair
A voice whispered all that I wanted to know
All that life is about- how it is always fair.

Life is the reality made up of dreams
It is the hope got out of disappointments
It is the peace that evolves from hostility
It is the creation that follows destruction.

The soothing voice explained
How every dark cloud has a silver lining,
How every problem has a solution and
How every end is only another beginning.

I understood I was never alone
I have always had so much of love showered on me
I understood that life is far above the petty sad things
And that it has always been just to me.

The Empty Me

I wanted to see the world
So I left you and went ahead
I wanted to succeed in life
So I abandoned whatever stood in my way
Now that I stand here
Reaching the peak very few can
Why am I all alone?
Why am I repentant?
Why cannot I even share the joy?

I am content but am oblivious
Of what real happiness is
Everybody knows me now
But I have lost my real identity
So karma really does exist?
Am I broken because of
The heartaches I caused long ago?
Was it a miscalculated mistake on my part,
Or was it just simple justified fate?

I have forgotten how to smile
I have given up all those
Who now I know meant the most to me
Is it too late to beg for forgiveness?
Are they too far for me to get them back?
I wish I had listened then
To the shrieking conscience in me
And now everything is gone,
There is nothing left but the empty me.

Always

I can walk alone
But I will like you to walk along with me
I can go alone
But I will like you to come with me
I am happy but you make me happier
I am not lonely but you make me feel complete
Just hold my hand all the time
And always be with me.

I can reach my goals by myself
But I will like you to cheer me on
I can conquer the word by myself
But where is the prize if you are gone?
I am successful but you are my pride
I am thoughtful and you are my reason
Just hold me close
And always love me.

I do not need to be by myself
I do not require doing things alone
I am content with us being together
I am pleased that you are my strength
I am what I am and you let me be
I do what I do and you still cherish me
Just be what you have been
And always let us be.

Sometimes..

Sometimes things are not what they seem
But sometimes, they just are
Sometimes you feel from within
And sometimes from feelings, you just are very far.

Sometimes you try too hard to change
But sometimes, you are glad of what you are
Sometimes you wish things to be different
And sometimes you are content with what they now are.

Sometimes letting go is not easy
But sometimes, it is more difficult to hold on
Sometimes you want to grab onto everything
And sometimes you realize that all is gone.

Sometimes it is so simple to understand
But sometimes, it is simpler not to reason
Sometimes you know actions are necessary
And sometimes it is wiser to do nothing.

Sometimes one way seems to be right
Sometimes the other does not seem wrong either
Sometimes both paths you are unwilling to take
But thats just how life is, how it always was.