Sometimes..

Sometimes things are not what they seem
But sometimes, they just are
Sometimes you feel from within
And sometimes from feelings, you just are very far.

Sometimes you try too hard to change
But sometimes, you are glad of what you are
Sometimes you wish things to be different
And sometimes you are content with what they now are.

Sometimes letting go is not easy
But sometimes, it is more difficult to hold on
Sometimes you want to grab onto everything
And sometimes you realize that all is gone.

Sometimes it is so simple to understand
But sometimes, it is simpler not to reason
Sometimes you know actions are necessary
And sometimes it is wiser to do nothing.

Sometimes one way seems to be right
Sometimes the other does not seem wrong either
Sometimes both paths you are unwilling to take
But thats just how life is, how it always was.

UNTITLED....

( THIS IS BY MY FRIEND...SOME RANDOM FEELINGS JOTTED DOWN..)

There's something I've just got to ask
What was running through your mind
Did you honestly think that I wouldn't care
That I wouldn't die, from your goodbye

It's like your mind was made up
You didn't even want to hear me out
Instead you called me a liar
You took the easy way out.

I wanted to work things out
If I remember correctly, it's not me
But you who walked away without
Trying to see, things werent as they seemed

What I don't understand
Is that you know me, you know who I am
I don't lie, esspecially like the way you said
You know I care as much as I can

On the other hand, even though deep down
You have killed me and broken my heart
I know that the real you still lies inside of you
One day you're going to realize
It's not me, but you who you caused harm

The day you realize and see
Exactly what it is that you have done
thn maybe bth of us wil realise our mistakes
but somethings i know cannot just be undone.

maybe somethings were just to be
maybe somethings were just not
maybe i will move on from this someday
or maybe i will just not.

When things go bad... They just go bad

(this ones dedicated to a friend who had given me this title to write on... im hoping you see the optimism in this one.)

When you walk the road of your existence
You come across many a junction
Time teaches you humility and patience
And shows you how God makes our lives function
He makes our paths challenging
Therefore, we realise the significance of each goal achieved
Reaching ambitions have never been easy
Things seem to go wrong even before aims are reached
But, when things go bad
They just go bad
Only to make things better after a while.

When things go bad
The heart beats faster
Moments may be sad
But this is not a disaster
This is not the end
It is just another bend
There is nothing to worry about
Because in life
When things go bad
They just go bad
And then life moves on.

Would It Always Be This Way?

Wanting to be together
Yet choosing to be apart
Longing to hold each other
Yet trying not to believe the heart
We both know we are mistaken
However the price we are both unwilling to pay
Things could have been so amazingly different
Then why did we end up this way?

We walk away from each other now
Yet have not been able to look away
We move on to different lives now
Where we hope the happiness will stay
But is that feasible?
Did not we try this so many times before?
Why are we still hurting now?
How did this happen all over again?

When we speak now
Knowing the circumstances to be inappropriate
Why are the feelings still of those times now?
Are we being bided again in the game of fate?
It may be easier to be apart than to be together
Perhaps that is the reason we have come to this day
But is this all that life to us can offer?
Would it always be this way?

Guilty..

(these are some random lines about two people who used to be a significant part of my life.. all that remain of them are memories...some good, some bad)

I just wanted to protect you
To take care of you when you were alone
I just wanted to believe in you
When everyone said you were wrong
I wish you understood that i really did care
I wish you knew that i never did compare
Nevertheless, the mistakes were mine
I was the one who had the expectations
I am the one guilty for believing in our friendship.

I just wanted to be with you
In times of sorrow and of happiness
I just wanted to share my life with you
And cherish all the amazing moments spent
I wish you knew that i meant each promise i made
I wish you could realise the depth of each word i said
However, the faults were mine
I was the one who could never see beyond us
I am the one guilty for believing in our love.

I Need To Be Reminded That I Am Loved.

Stretching my hand
To attain the unattainable
Trying to run away from what
I know to be inevitable
The silent cries behind the laughter
The tears hid in those smiling eyes.

Tell me what to do
Hold my hand i am lost
Take me to my destiny
I need to be reminded that i am loved.

The million answers
To questions unasked
In the night alone
Counting the countless stars
The unvoiced prayersto get things unwanted
Figuring out solutions to problems unknown.

Tell me what to do
Hold my hand i am lost
Take me to my destiny
I need to be reminded that i am loved.

This life is not
Just mine to live
Yet all that i do not understand
Belongs to me alone
Am strengthened with love but
Bent with expectations of others.

Tell me what to do
Hold my hand i am lost
Take me to my destiny
I need to be reminded that i am loved.

Genuine Counterfeit

You said the words i needed to hear
You made me feel what i wanted to feel
Yet you were not there when i looked around
You were gone, not to be found
Now i know it was simple yet genuine counterfeit.

I went to sleep with my head on your chest
I woke up with your arms around me
Now i am alone on my bed
Why were you there in the first place
If you had to leave
Now i know it was plain yet genuine counterfeit.

I liked smiling with the thought of you
Smelling of you when you were not around
Now just the memories remain
Of what was not there even when it existed
Now i know it was effortless yet genuine counterfeit.

I remember you looking into my eyes
And with yours making a million promises
The silent prayers and the dreams shown
Shattered into pieces still being unspoken
I cried then not knowing what
Now i know to be pure and genuine counterfeit.