Guilty..

(these are some random lines about two people who used to be a significant part of my life.. all that remain of them are memories...some good, some bad)

I just wanted to protect you
To take care of you when you were alone
I just wanted to believe in you
When everyone said you were wrong
I wish you understood that i really did care
I wish you knew that i never did compare
Nevertheless, the mistakes were mine
I was the one who had the expectations
I am the one guilty for believing in our friendship.

I just wanted to be with you
In times of sorrow and of happiness
I just wanted to share my life with you
And cherish all the amazing moments spent
I wish you knew that i meant each promise i made
I wish you could realise the depth of each word i said
However, the faults were mine
I was the one who could never see beyond us
I am the one guilty for believing in our love.

I Need To Be Reminded That I Am Loved.

Stretching my hand
To attain the unattainable
Trying to run away from what
I know to be inevitable
The silent cries behind the laughter
The tears hid in those smiling eyes.

Tell me what to do
Hold my hand i am lost
Take me to my destiny
I need to be reminded that i am loved.

The million answers
To questions unasked
In the night alone
Counting the countless stars
The unvoiced prayersto get things unwanted
Figuring out solutions to problems unknown.

Tell me what to do
Hold my hand i am lost
Take me to my destiny
I need to be reminded that i am loved.

This life is not
Just mine to live
Yet all that i do not understand
Belongs to me alone
Am strengthened with love but
Bent with expectations of others.

Tell me what to do
Hold my hand i am lost
Take me to my destiny
I need to be reminded that i am loved.

Genuine Counterfeit

You said the words i needed to hear
You made me feel what i wanted to feel
Yet you were not there when i looked around
You were gone, not to be found
Now i know it was simple yet genuine counterfeit.

I went to sleep with my head on your chest
I woke up with your arms around me
Now i am alone on my bed
Why were you there in the first place
If you had to leave
Now i know it was plain yet genuine counterfeit.

I liked smiling with the thought of you
Smelling of you when you were not around
Now just the memories remain
Of what was not there even when it existed
Now i know it was effortless yet genuine counterfeit.

I remember you looking into my eyes
And with yours making a million promises
The silent prayers and the dreams shown
Shattered into pieces still being unspoken
I cried then not knowing what
Now i know to be pure and genuine counterfeit.